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July 31…really???

How is this possible? Could a month and a half passed since writing you? Crazy! Time flies! Whether you are having fun or not…gratefully, I am mostly having fun! I love summer. I do. I love it. Lack of schedule, lack of mandatory running around (mostly), swimming, the beach, sleeping in late, road trips, hanging out with your kids all the time, sleepovers. I know some parents are excited for the kids to go back to school, and I am too at times, but mostly, I just love this time together. I feel the changes happening, the shifts occurring, and soon my babies are going to move on, as they are supposed to do. I am not trying to be dramatic, but I AM trying to be present. This summer has not been our typical summer. My oldest has been away for 4 weeks this summer- three consecutively. We have been trying to sell our home, lots of cleaning up and lots of showings, as well as preparing to move into our new home. We picked our son up from the course he was taking at Emory University, and then proceeded to do our son’s college tour from there. It was so great having him back and having all of my people in the car with me. Lots of conversation, restaurants, different playlists from different kids, and lots of cool destinations. We have a better handle now on what we are looking for in re:to schools, and re: what won’t serve our son so well. It was a great trip, and we are glad to now be home.
My middle babe turned 15 yesterday. What is that about! It is crazy that this can be true. But it is. She is gorgeous inside and out and I am grateful she is my baby. We had about 15 of her friends over yesterday beginning at 4 to swim, have a cook out, they played giant yard Jenga, had a water balloon fight, made s’mores, and watched an outdoor movie while hanging out in the pool. It was a great evening. Her friends are just as nice as she is…and we are so grateful. They were so thoughtful in their gift giving, it was awesome to see her open up truly thoughtful presents. She is so thoughtful in her gift giving, and it was nice those sentiments returned. This was our first coed party too, mind you. But they truly enjoyed one another. Initially, it was awkward like a middle school dance – boys on one side, girls on the other, but then our pastor and his family arrived, to have their 5 year old little girl give Grace the gift she bought her. That little girl wrangled all those boys up and girls and had them all eating out of her hands at the same time! The boys were sweet to her and were high fiving her and letting her put flash tattoos all over them. By the end of the visit with our pastor and his family, all the boys and girls were swimming together, playing games together, having water balloon fights, etc. It was adoreable! It also really showed the true nature of all of these 15 & 16 year old kids. They were tender and sweet and not too cool to be nice to a couple of adorable little kids.
Mom is still mom. She is consistently loosing things, obsessing about them for a few weeks, and then finding them. She and dad are busy filling their days with movies, and the theatre, and lots of tacos from San Julians in Ft. Myers! We talk nearly daily and she is sweet and funny. My dad has been taking her for trips to get her nails done, her hair done, or a massage. It is making him happy to do this for her and it also buys him a little alone time I think. The other day they called me and she had just come back from getting her hair cut and colored along with a manicure. I asked her to tell me about it and she said she was really happy with everything but they did a terrible job on her toes. She said she was going to go back in tomorrow and have them redo them because they looked terrible. Meanwhile, in the background my dad says” they didn’t do your toes today…they did your hair and your fingernails.” She said…”Oooh, really? Hmm. Well, I am going to go back there and have them fix them up anyway, they look terrible.” Bless her heart. I am not sure where they are still re: the new house. If nothing else, we are providing an option for them. It doesn’t appear as though my dad is on the same page as us, still. We will see. I think this will change, but in the meantime, I will not say anything except that it will be there for them should they need it. We are creating an option.
My brother and I texted recently. That is unusual, but not entirely unpleasant. He let me know through text that he and his family have moved to New Hampshire. Hmm. They needed a change. Ok. He wrote to give me his new number. Near the end of our text exchange, he asked about my mom. Asked how she was. She would feel very betrayed if I were to give up her personal info to someone who she feels has abandoned her so I simply said that she was well, but that life is tougher these days, than in days past. He stated that he has written them countless letters, sent them photos, and his various addresses, but they never get in touch with him. He said he feels they are screening his calls to because he hasn’t been able to reach them.
If my parents knew how to use their phones or technology, I might see his point of view, but my parents went to Mexico in April, and my dad just 3 days ago figured out how to turn off airplane mode!!! Again…bless his heart! They are trying. For this I am grateful. All I could say to my sibling was, I am sorry that you all are in this place. I left it at that. I am done having this discussion. He is too obviously. He said that he is done reaching out to them. I hope his son looks at life with a little more love and humility, and doesn’t do to his parents what my sibling has done to my parents. My parents will never get over the heart ache, I don’t believe. Especially my mom. He was her everything. Having said that, Oh well, not my bed & I won’t be sleeping in it. I will love her through it though, and try not to say anything bad or negative about anyone either. I choose to Love them all right where they are.

Quite a nutshell right? I think this is all my norm. I do not think that things will ever settle, just shift. We shall see. Once again, I am grateful. God is good to me and the people I love and those around me. Please keep us in your prayers to sell this beautiful house so that we can move into the next one with a sense of peace and tranquility. We close on August 31 – a month from today. Hard to believe. Onward and upward!
Peace, Love and Light.

Cinco de Mayo!

Good morning friends! Has it really been a month since I have been on here! Yikes! Time flies. I guess I really needed some down time! Ha! Anyway, today is a quick post as I have been working in my husband’s office for the last 3 weeks. It is part time, and they were swamped. It is all good and has been a good change of pace. Funny how doing something out of your ordinary can really help you appreciate your ordinary! Right? Suddenly, I really miss yoga, making beautiful breakfasts, having time to plan various things out, make meals for my family. It also makes you better at planning your time. I know I need to do all of the above, I just don’t have all day, and some stuff, I haven’t fit in yet. All good. Speaking of beautiful and quick breakfasts, I had one of my faves. An avocado smash. Yum. Toast bread, some sort of spread – mine was a lemon mayo type spread, you smash 1/2 an avocado between 2 pieces of toast and lightly sprinkle some sort of salt. Mine was a veggie herb salt…Ugh, so delish!
Anyway. I digress.
Life has been good, kids are wrapping up school. Lots of homework, testing, papers, dioramas, reports, field trips, etc. We are also wrapping up sports. One more volleyball tournament and we are done for the season. It has been a LONG season! and EXPENSIVE! Dear Jesus. This was never an option for me growing up. My parents couldn’t commit to dropping me off and picking me up from a practice, much less spending every weekend away in a different city paying for hotels, food, parking and a sweatshirt from every event. Yikes!Times sure have changed. I am happy that she is having this experience, but I am quite aware of how different our upbringings are, and both are good, just different. Anyway. My youngest just went to Disney on a field trip with her entire 5th grade class. What a treat and luxury. Having grown up in Pennsylvania and Minnesota, that would have been unbelievably amazing! Here in Florida, it is another day! So cool that this a floridians reality. Anyway. It was the hottest day of the year so far…ugh. I am one of those really ugly sweaters… I don’t glisten or glow. I am like a 12 year old boy in PE class. Man, did I sweat! It was a blast though, and fun to experience with a bunch of 11 year old girls. How cool to be able to go to Disney with all your best buds! Grateful.
Mom and Dad update. They are currently in Mexico – Guadalajara. It was a calamity getting them there, maybe I’ll tell you about it later! They are there now though and having a blast. My mom is enjoying time with her niece who we call La Nena (the girl). That is in total how i know her. If I were to have to find my parents, the only info I have is that she is staying with “the girl”. Oh my! I’m sure the authorities could assist me in finding them with that information, right? Haha. Anyway. Mom is confused, but having a great time. I am glad for them. She has learned how to use WhatsApp, which is hysterical really. I am glad Nena has showed her how to use it, although, she keeps calling my husband thinking its me she is calling and leaving super weird random messages. She also called me thinking I was her cousin, and left a LONG rambling message to her. Oh my. Technology and dementia. Yikes! What a combination! Anyway. Chat more later, I am going to be late if I don’t pull myself together. The boss might not be happy! ūüėČ
Chow for now!

March 11, 2016

Good morning! ¬†It is a gorgeous day here in sunny Florida. ¬†I think we are getting into the low 80’s, and it just feels like spring – pollen and all! ¬†My husband and I just returned from New York, celebrating our 20 year wedding anniversary, and the warmth in Florida is much appreciated! ¬†It is so wonderful leaving for just a bit, and then it is even more wonderful coming home! ¬†Don’t you agree? ¬†Even when you know you have a ton of stuff to do when you get back, or you have major stuff in front of you, extracting yourself from your life once in a while is necessary.

It was so tough to leave…so many deadlines, the kids have all kinds of things going on, work is crazy and demanding, but 20 years! ¬†Wow! ¬†That deserves a pause and proper acknowledgment of a life well lived, despite the insane sometimes! ¬†We have been getting away (as often as possible)for our anniversaries since our 7 year anniversary. ¬†It helps us to remember the reasons we decided to be¬†together in the first place, the things we love(d) about one another, and enables us to build new memories together just the 2 of us. ¬†It is nice that we still really want to be together. We are still romantic towards one another, and despite the ways we have physically changed and developed, we are still very physically and sexually attracted to each other. ¬†Its beautiful. ¬†We walked all over the city, rode the Big Red Bus, the subway & the yellow cabs. ¬†We ate & drank our way through New York, experiencing a culinary experience like no other. ¬†The cocktails were exquisite as well. You almost feel as though you are missing out if you opt for a glass of wine, or go for a beer. ¬†We are not into plays, or musicals, or things of this nature, which puts us in the category of “freaks” in NYC! ¬†But that is ok with us. ¬†One of the highlights of our trip was going to Ellis Island and the Statue of Liberty. ¬†It is so majestic. ¬†It takes your breath away and makes you feel so proud that we live in this beautiful country. ¬†I didn’t know I would feel so moved, but it was really touching. ¬†I found both of my grandparents names in the ship manifests when they came over from Sweden back in the early 1900’s. ¬†That was really emotional. ¬†It allowed me to sort of see the world from their eyes, not as my grandparents, but as young adults, making a huge decision about the rest of their lives, and changing everything about their lives. ¬†They met here in this country, but were both from Sweden. ¬†I have work to do now, to figure out more of their story. ¬†They were older grandparents when I was born. ¬†My grandfather was 50 when my father was born, so he was nearly 75 when I was born. ¬†I would like to know more about he and my grandmother as children, young adults, and in their courting relationships.

We are home now and back in the swing of things. I have a renewed sense of purpose, strength, and drive.  I am looking forward to all things that I normally have to do.  Some are still really challenging, namely parenting sometimes & dealing with the failing health of parents.  But, I have had a rest, a break, and I can do all this again.  Life is good.  What a nice thing to be able to say and mean.

July 7, 2015

Crazy day!!! I did not sleep last night, and I am FEELING it now! ¬†Our flight out of M√©rida left at 6:05 am?. We didn’t get home from dinner until 1:30 this morning. ¬†We got back, packed our stuff and made our way to the airport. ¬†We were there before 3 but we assumed that was better than not waking up, and we were supposed to check in at 4. ¬†We were dropped off by one tired Tia, and we made our way to the doors. ¬†They were locked!!! What! ¬†Who does that??? Melinda jimmied the door, we were promptly reprimanded!we were made to wait outside until 4 am.

¬†we laughed our tails off laying down outside the airport! ¬†My aunt would have had a heart attack! ¬†We have made our flight/ connection, and we are on our way home. ¬†We are currently on board our flight. ¬†We have had a beautiful time,not really being touristy, but visiting with my beautiful family. ¬† It was such a blessed trip. ¬†We slept quite a bit, ¬†ate quite a bit! ¬†Saw Grace off, and then just visited. ¬†I brought a friend with me and it was nice because I didn’t feel the pressure of entertaining. ¬†I feel bad I didn’t show her more, but it wasnt in the cards this time. ¬†I am super ready to be home with my family (-Grace?), and ready to just be for a bit. ¬†I return to Merida in several weeks, but am grateful in this moment. ¬†Chow for now!

July 5, 2015

Flat Daddy
Flat Daddy

Feeling sad this morning. ¬†I’m dropping off my daughter to stay with her cousin. ¬†I’m so excited for her, she’s going to be fine. ¬†It’s me…I’m going to miss her so much. ¬†She is one of the most amazing people I know.

I remember being left here for a month. ¬†Circumstances were a bit different though. Mom now says I begged to come, I was stressed,I needed a break. I remember it as a consequence for misbehaving a little too frequently. ¬†She thought my grandmother would help deal with my misbehaving ways. Instead, it was the best summer of my life. ¬†Beach, friends, sleeping in late, parties, fun. ¬†It was wonderful. ¬†I also built relationships with my family that weren’t just based on relationships that my mom had. ¬†I developed my own relationships with my family. ¬†That is tough when you are 15, nothing is in your native tongue, you are in another country with different traditions and cultures and customs. ¬†It was great though.

I’m excited for her, and homesick myself! ¬†I’m ready to go home, and it’s going to be strange going home without Grace.

July 4,2015

 

Baca is a town that houses an Integrative Medicine Facility. People come here for Cancer treatments. It is so peaceful.  It is like actually being in Thailand.

Morning all! ¬†Happy 4th! We will be celebrating in Mexico this year, sans fireworks, sans boat rides and watermelon! ¬†No cook outs either!!! What??? Well,it is¬†NOT a Mexican holiday! ¬†Today we are celebrating by going to a little town called Baca and getting quiet with ourselves and celebrating peace, and health and God’s Gifts to us. ¬†I will be mindful of these things today. ¬†I am grateful for you my friends, and all my beautiful family, spread out all over the country, And throughout this beautiful world of ours.

I’ve not written in a while. ¬†I’ve been busy, sick, and. ¬†I’ve made it home from Europe with my mom, got her home, and settled. ¬†She is happy to be home and readjusting to our seperated space. ¬†It is hard for her- me too, knowing she is sad. ¬†But, she is well.

I sat near a woman who violently sneezed from Germany to the U.S…..dear Lord! ¬†Hideous woman. ¬†Didn’t even attempt to cover her mouth. ¬†Eventually blowing her nose into the airline’s blanket. ¬†No wonder people in other countries hate us and think we are rude and disrespectful. ¬†Needless to say, I have been battling this cold turned sinus infection. ¬†Thank goodness for the z-pack ! ¬†I was home for 5 days, and then off again to drop off my sweet middle child off in Mexico to spend a month with our family here, and to learn the language. ¬†We have been talking about this experience for a year now…and it is finally here. ¬†I’m not sure what I will do without her! ¬†I adore this sweet and funny child. ¬†She is going to be so fine here though. ¬†This is going to be such a great experience for her. ¬†I am so happy for her.

I have had a lovely time thus far visiting with my sweet little aunt- Chicha. ¬†She is a blast, and I love her. ¬†She is always glad we are here and always complains that however long the stay is, it is never long enough! ¬†She feeds my desire for soulful music, beautiful food, and places that make me feel whole. It is a beautiful and soulful life down here. ¬†I have also spent some beautiful time with my aunts and my cousin Edwin. ¬†I have grown up smack in the middle of 3 cultures at a physical distance from those that are my family, yet I am still a part of these seperated cultures & tied to all 3. My dads family came over from Sweden, but wanted to be inconspicuous & look and live like Americans. My mother and her family are all born and raised in Mexico and all stayed here except my mom. ¬†We lived in a Hispanic way,but in a homogenized manner. ¬†We were very American in many ways. ¬†But I FEEL like I am with people and things I really connect with when I am here. ¬†Music, food, socializing, family, spirituality, culture. ¬†It’s very relatable to me. ¬†I feel grateful I get to breeze in and out of this life here with these beautiful people. ¬†I’m sometimes sad I don’t fit in more, we don’t have the same history of ¬†those that were raised together. ¬†I’m none the less glad though that I “belong” here.

I do miss my family at home though, and I’m ready to spend some time enjoying their company.

Pitaya Ice Cream or Dragonfruit Ice Cream
My beautiful girl
Me and my cousin, Edwin. Love this guy!
Beautiful Baca, Yucatan.
Enjoying a Thai lunch with some of my favorite ladies!
Two of my sweet aunties, and us giant American girls!
When in Merida, Yucatan, you MUST eat at Amaro. It is amazing, and the food it not only exquisite, but divine!
One of my favorite meals…Panuchos. I try to eat at least one of these each day while in Merida!

 

June27, 2015

Ive been delaying watching the movie Still Alice. ¬†I’ve been advised by my friends not to watch it yet. ¬†It was on the que on the way from Orlando to Germany…I avoided it. ¬†Yesterday, at our farewell dinner of our tour, a lovely lady named Alice actually, brought up the movie, quietly, to me. ¬†My mom heard a bit of the conversation and joined in singing the praises of the movie etc. ¬†Obviously , there is so much irony in this as their wasn’t a knowledge as to why this came up. ¬†Also, she was glad to be included in the conversation about a movie she enjoyed.

Spring forward one day.

I watched the movie. Ugh. ¬†So many tears on an airplane. ¬†Gratefully, I’m sitting in the seat directly behind my mom, so she couldn’t see me bawling like a baby. ¬†I’m sure the 2 people next to me think I’m either highly emotional or on my period! ¬†Highly emotional yes. ¬†Period…private. ¬†Anyway. ¬†Wow, that’s all I can think or say. ¬†Wow. ¬†It’s too huge to deal with. ¬†Especially now, on an airplane. ¬†It resonates with my in a big way though especially after the trip we just took. ¬†A lot makes sense, other parts totally haven’t happened. ¬†But wow. ¬†Oh my Gosh. ¬†I feel heartbroken for the future event of some future person. ¬†I can see it. ¬†It is out there still, but I can see it. ¬†I’ve struggled with some of these situations over the last 2 weeks. ¬†The constant questions, repetitive ¬†questions, lack of memory, lack of understanding, empathy, and awareness. ¬†As well as a lack of understanding social cues in public situations.

I can’t and won’t let it ruin our time, but the reality of it makes me so sad. ¬†Grateful to be going home.

June 26, 2015

Well,it’s just about here! ¬†We have been gone now 11 days and we return home tomorrow! ¬†We have had the best time, met some of the absolute nicest people and seen some of the coolest things. ¬†We had our final tour today, we went to Montserrat . ¬†It is 2300 feet up a mountain and it is gorgeous. ¬†I took most of my pics this trip with my actual camera so I don’t personally have a photo to show just yet. ¬†There is a monastery up there, a nunery, a boys boarding school mostly focusing on music. ¬†It is a beautiful campus. ¬†It also holds a statue aptly called the Black Madonna. ¬†It is in a gorgeous shrine surrounded by beautiful mosaic work. ¬† You have to really want to worship, pray or meditate to head this far into the mountains. ¬†I can’t even imagine what building it must have entailed. ¬†Mom attended a Latin mass with her new BFF’s Gina and Manuel. ¬†She was moved by it all. They were sweet to give me a little respite. ¬†I walked around, shopped, took photos then sat by myself on top of this beautiful mountain. ¬†It was lovely. ¬†Mom and the BFF’s were 35 minutes late getting to the bus. ¬†People were getting restless, but everyone said”we can’t leave Mamma Maria”. ¬†Everyone was¬†worried if she was ok. ¬†She was/is, she just moves slow. ¬†Anyway. ¬†We have had a beautiful and blessed time. ¬†We grew closer to each other and to God. ¬† ¬†We are each respectively ready to be home with our people. ¬†I miss them all so much! ¬†I can’t wait to be reunited with my sweet husband, my babes, I miss my home and my pets, I miss my girlfriends and a small gaggle of kids that normally is seen hanging around my house! ¬†I’m ready. ¬†See you soon!

June 25, 2015

La Sagrada Familia Barcelona Spain Gaudi
La Sagrada Familia Barcelona Spain Gaudi

Today has been a good day. ¬†Much better than yesterday-grateful to say. ¬†We hung out last night with our new friends Beth and Tisha. ¬†We walked down to Las Ramblas, downtown Barcelona, Spain, ¬†and had dinner and drinks. ¬†Oh my Lord… I have at least one drink with every meal except breakfast. ¬†Jeez… Time to detox!!! I’m going to say though, I love the experiential nature of this country. ¬†Here in Spain, Portugal and France. ¬†They slow down, enjoy each other, enjoy a bottle of wine together. ¬†They eat beautiful food made out of fresh ingredients. They don’t cook with or eat a lot of sauces or condiments. ¬†It’s beautiful. ¬†The whole experience. ¬†We made our way home from a gorgeous dinner of tapas, and paella. ¬†This morning we ate (not me…still stuffed from last night) then got on our tour bus. ¬†We toured the city and went on a tour of La Sagrada Familia. ¬†It took my breath away. ¬†The whole exterior¬†is covered¬†in the story of Jesus’ life. Gaudi wanted everyone to get something out of the building even if they weren’t catholic, of religious. ¬†When you walk in ¬†you are bathed in sunlight from the gorgeous stained glass windows. ¬†The cool colors are a statement on Jesus’ life. ¬†That’s on one side of the building. ¬†On the other side the stained glass is all in reds and oranges and yellows, and that is the story of the passion -His death. ¬†No straight lines on the pillars. ¬†The pillars look like trees. We were told by our guide, that the reason the pillars look like trees was because if you ask a Buddhist where to find God or enlightenment they would tell you in the forest under¬†a¬†tree, if you ask a Christian where to find God or Enlightenment, they would tell you in the temple. ¬†This is a forest in the temple, so it can appeal to every one of¬†any¬†religion. ¬†It was extraordinary! ¬†My favorite place of worship to date.

Mom and I finished our shopping, we walked… and walked… and walked…, then grabbed a taxi back. ¬†Funny enough, we are staying at a beautiful hotel, Porta Fira. ¬†Our room is on the 15th floor. ¬†Our room number is the same as my home address…1515. ¬†Funny! ¬†I miss home. ¬†I miss my husband and my kids. ¬†I’ve had the opportunity to FaceTime them a few times. ¬†It’s great to see their faces. ¬† ¬†My mom has really missed my dad. ¬†I’m grateful for that. ¬†He has missed her also. ¬†He cried one time telling me how grateful he was that she and I were doing this. ¬†He said “she sounds so happy. ¬†You’ve made her life with this trip. ¬†Thank you.” ¬†It was very sweet and touching. ¬†But they are ready to be back together. ¬†Mom asks about him everyday. ¬†She talks in her sleep most of the time, and many times she¬†talks

about her dog and to my dad. ¬† ¬†She was excited to bring him things she thinks he’ll enjoy. ¬†It’s lovely. ¬†It offers me perspective that even when they are angry with one another, or when my dad deals with her totally different from¬†how I do or would, there is still lots of love and care there. ¬†That is reassuring. ¬†Anyway. ¬†We are resting a bit prior to going to dinner and to see a flamenco dance. ¬†Should be fun.

One more day, and this adventure wraps up.  We head back to Orlando from Frankfurt, Germany.  I look forward to seeing my family.

It’s been great though!

June 24, 2015

Just now left France. ¬† Lourdes. ¬†I adore France. ¬†I am positive I could live here. ¬†I think though that I feel that way about most of the places I go! ¬†I’m inspired by the scenery, gastronomy, and the kindness of the people. ¬†There are on average 20,000 people a day that visit Lourdes. ¬†They are second only to Paris in beds available per night. ¬†Pretty interesting for a location that pretty much was non-existent except for the fact that the Virgin appeared to Bernadette 18 times in a grotto. ¬†The site itself is breathtaking. ¬†Awe inspiring. ¬†We participated in all there was to do here. ¬†We went to mass, prayed the rosary…I haven’t done this since catholic school-elementary school. ¬†I’m getting better!???. Anyway, we attended candlelight processions , checked out all the basilicas and churches, learned about all the saints and various people involved¬†in the apparitions. ¬†We then participated in the baths. We waited 2 hours in line to be brought to basically what looked¬†like a cabana themed preparation¬†room that smelled like roses. ¬†Hundreds of volunteers were there to assist with the baths. ¬†1000’s of people daily hope to have an opportunity to have this experience¬†and they hope and pray¬†for a miracle. ¬†There are literally 1000’s of people in wheelchairs, with deformities, and in various stages of impairment. ¬†It is heart wrenching. ¬†When it is your turn, you are escorted into a changing cabana so to speak. ¬†They hold a drape around you while you disrobe. ¬†Then, when it is your turn you are led to a¬†marble tub with constantly flowing water from a¬†spring. ¬†The story is that the¬†virgin appeared and asked Bernadette to drink from the source of the spring and bathe in it. At that time, there was no spring, but she began to dig and it was if she were in a trance. ¬†The water sprung from under where she was digging. ¬†It has been a holy place since, a place of miracles. ¬†Before your bath, you pray, set your intentions, and then you are immersed several times in the ¬†icy water. ¬†You are blessed and prayed over by these 3 women that are assisting you in your bath. ¬†It is a life altering moment that invokes a flood of tears. ¬†Beautiful. ¬†While in my bath, during my time of quiet and prayer, I envisioned myself and the people I prayed for, surrounded and encased in white light. ¬†Pure beautiful warmth, love, energy and light. ¬†Lovely. ¬†I highly recommend this beautiful and life altering¬†experience and destination as part of your journey.

Today we head to Barcelona, Spain. ¬†I’m Excited! ¬†I feel as though I am growing a bit tired and weary. ¬†I miss my family, and I haven’t been able to take any time¬†for¬†myself. ¬†I’m used to a lot more autonomy. As much as I adore my mother and am savoring all these beautiful, life altering moments with my sweet mamma,it is difficult to be “on” 24/7. ¬†She has become very absentminded, gets lost in seconds, and confused in her thoughts, words, and sentiments. ¬†She misunderstands people constantly. Often, she¬†feels as though people¬†are mocking her or diminishing her thoughts or process etc. ¬†She¬†is also having a difficult time discerning social cues, such as when a conversation is “over”,when one¬†should stop speaking, or allow¬†someone else to speak, etc.. ¬†We have met beautiful, kind, gentle, souls on this journey, that respect our¬†journeys respectively. ¬†For that I am Grateful. ¬†Today is the first time I broke down and cried. ¬†It was over breakfast. ¬†I was embarrassed. ¬†I did not want to explain why the tears just kept rolling. ¬†People very kindly and gently asked if I was ok, and where “Mamma Maria” was. ¬†She was waiting downstairs by her luggage which I had to haul down 5 flights of stairs because she couldn’t get her self together in a timely fashion. ¬†This process of packing goes on late into the night, every night, and still isn’t wrapped up by morning. ¬†She packs, unpacks, repacks, and may do this several¬†more times. ¬†I had set out her things for her as¬†I had done nearly every night. ¬†I packed her back pack and then attempted sleep. ¬†She went through this packing¬†IMG_6704.JPGprocess several times while I was sleeping. ¬†In the morning, she couldn’t find any¬†of her clothes, undergarments, or various other items. ¬†She¬†was flustered, and many of her things were “lost”. It was frustrating for both of us. She had a difficult time figuring out how to use the shower, and swore it didn’t work. ¬†It was just a difficult day and it wasn’t even 8am. I just needed a few minutes and some coffee. ¬†Anyway, I fell apart and am now sitting apart from my mom¬†so we can both pull ourselves back together. ¬†We are stopped now, so I’ll chat later.